The God of Promise

by Edie Wadsworth on December 29, 2010

On a Sunday…..
we sat listening to our Pastor finish a 12 week study on Job. His final words were:
“God doesn’t give explanations, He gives promises.”  I couldn’t stop thinking about the truth of those words.
Caiti and Cody decided to come spend the night.
We shared Christmas fun all day. We made the cutest gingerbread houses, salt dough ornaments and cookies.

On a Monday…….
Caiti and Cody decided to spend one more night. I was happy.
I couldn’t *shake* the Job quote. I’ve thought about Job a lot during the past couple of months.
How he’s such a parallel to Christ. Losing everything in one day. Without an explanation from God.

On a Tuesday……
at 4:30 in the morning, I awake to a terrifying amount of smoke. My husband miraculously crawls through the house to try to get to the kids. I am unable to follow him and jump out the nearest  window and meet him at the front door. We stand screaming and sobbing and helpless,unable to get up the stairs to our kids. Caiti, my guardian angel daughter, who only by a miracle was even sleeping upstairs, was already awake and ushering the little girls out of harms’ way. She even has the forethought to have them cover their faces with their pillow. The image of my oldest daughter ushering her sisters through mortal danger to safety will forever be imprinted on my heart.

She’s the angel on the bridge.
My forever hero.

She then runs around to the basement to wake Cody. He rescues our dogs. Less than  two minutes later, our house is engulfed in flames and  before daylight  is burned to the ground.    Everything.   Gone.   I don’t think I stop crying all day.   And shaking on the inside. I can’t stop thinking ‘what if’. And then I can’t stop saying prayers of thanksgiving. Only God can save 6 people and 2 dogs without so much as a singed strand of hair. I cannot plumb the depths of his love and mercy.

On a Wednesday……..

I wake up numb. It wasn’t a dream. My house and everything in it is gone.  I’m speechless that God’s mercy is so vast.  My children are alive and unharmed.  I ride this roller coaster all day. Overwhelming thankfulness and heavy despair, sitting side by side in my mind each trying to win the day.   I don’t even know where to start. My sister makes a list and puts me in the car to start doing what we must do to get our lives back.  She drives and I cry.  And I remember that it will soon be Christmas Eve.   Hearts full of love and mercy descend on us like I could never have imagined. People I know and love and people I don’t know at all start meeting our every need.  My neighbors step in like family and take care of us.   We are  blessed with a fully furnished unoccupied house, ready to use, right down to food in the refrigerator. Clothes, money, gift cards, Christmas gifts, calls, emails and messages of love just pouring in—more than I can count or read in one sitting. My sister painstakingly reproduces our Christmas gifts, every single one. My brother meets up with us with more love and gifts and blessings. Seeing him hurting so for me breaks my heart all over again. My heart is full and grateful.  I am overwhelmingly sad and yet unable to stop rejoicing. My mother is amazing. My husband is my rock. My children are so incredibly brave. I am blessed beyond measure. It’s as if our friends and family have become the  hands and feet of Christ, bringing love and help and healing.

On a Thursday…….
The older kids come home. I breathe a big sigh of relief . We make plans to stay *home* for Christmas despite the fact that there’s no tree and no trappings.
What a gift just to be together. While we’re gone trying to do the essentials, little angels bring us food and snacks and a Christmas tree. I come *home* to blessing after blessing. I went two whole hours without sobbing—-until I saw the tree. My friends have done so much.   My dear friend  Patty has been invaluable, coordinating, organizing but mostly knowing every perfect thing to say and bringing me an old friend, C.S. Lewis, to comfort me. My friends are priceless, by my side from the very beginning.   Sandy brought me a copy of the Lutheran prayer book that I had given her two Christmases ago. I can’t stop reading it.  My family is unbelievable, pure love and support.   Steve’s family aches for us from afar,  and bring hope and comfort to us.   They all try to be strong but I can see on their faces and hear it in their voices that they are devastated for us. They carry the weight of our burden on their faces and in their hearts. I can’t help but thinking as we celebrate the incarnation of Christ—-that this is what it means to have Christ in the flesh. He works through others, to bring hope and life.

On a Friday……..
I wake with a heavy burden.     I am reminded that it was on a very dark Friday, long ago, that our Lord laid down His life, so that through His suffering, we might live.    I finally find my way back to a computer. And the weight of it hits. I have so much of the past few years of my life and memories preserved online. Not all my earthly memories were lost. I see your messages and your love and I almost can’t bear to read them. I start to look at my blog but I can’t do it. I can’t look at my house. Not yet. But I know someday, I will sit down and look back through all my projects and all my *stuff* and it will bring such healing to have it preserved at least in some way. Everywhere I turn, I receive more than my heart and hands can hold. Our friends from Issues Etc heard the news and sent us words of grace and mercy.    Todd reminded us, serendipitously enough, of the words from Job. ‘The Lord gives the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.’ He also said    ”Continue to trust His ‘pure, fatherly, divine goodness and mercy.’ That is founded on the very death of His Son for you. THAT he will never take away.”
Just like my pastor said, “God doesn’t give explanations. He gives promises.”

On Christmas Day……..

It’s looks on the outside like I’m functioning.  I’m eating but not tasting.  I’m existing but not living.  I do the bare necessities.   But everytime I close my eyes, I go to a lonely helpless place.  I sneak off to my bedroom to cry and call my sister.   I have been in constant prayer just to hold it somewhat together.  I know it will take time.  And I trust in His every provision.  I don’t want to be alone but I don’t want to be in a crowd.   This is perhaps the most helpless feeling I’ve ever had.   And yet it’s also the most loved and cared for I’ve ever been.   As I’ve had time to process through all the gifts of love, I’m struck by how incredibly generous people are.  And  their (your) generosity has made a permanent mark on my heart.  I will never be the same.  I have new eyes.  And I pray that this gift of seeing the world differently will stay.   That I won’t forget this mercy raining down.  That I will know like never before that Love has come, incarnate, in the flesh for me. I can hardly fathom the blessings, my children all here with me.  My perfect Christmas gift wrapped in mercy and love from my Father.

Today……..

It’s been a week since my life was forever changed.   A heaviness sets in that I worry will be my permanent friend.  I  want to really  smile.  I want my children to play.   I wish my husband could laugh.  Our friends and family have seen to all our  daily needs and so much more.   We are loved on every side.  Your calls and messages mean more than you could know.   There are brief moments when I can hope for the future.   But in the loneliness of the night, I wonder if it can  ever really  be the same?   Will everything always be tainted with little tiny pieces of devastation?  I know that God knows our groanings and He calms our  fears with promises from His word, which  can never be destroyed.  He loves us with an inexorable  love and He will burn away all impurities until we shine like gold.

He is the God of the burning bush.  He is the fourth man in the fire.  And He will lead us safely home.

Christ has come in the flesh to bear our sins, our burdens, our guilt.   To restore what has been lost.  To bring life where there’s death.   To raise from the ashes beauty untold.

We are clinging to His promises.

We are humbled by His grace.

So many of you have asked how you can help.  I so appreciate your gracious, willing spirit.   I promise that our every need is met.   And if we have needs arise, I will let you know.

My sister has provided her address if you’d like to send cards but please know that we really are well provided for and your sweet messages online have been more than enough.   My aunt sent us a generous gift card through Amazon and we will reorder our school books soon.  Love you and thank you for caring so deeply.

My sister’s name and address is:

Gina Williams
506 Helton Road
Maryville, TN  37804


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1 Southern Gal December 29, 2010 at 11:34 am

No words are sufficient. I read this through tears praising God for your “guardian angels” who have helped you through this difficult time. Thanking the Lord that His hands and feet are there with you.

These verses from Isaiah 61 have gone through my head over and over as I pray for you and your family:
to grant to those who mourn in Zion—
to give them a beautiful headdress instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness instead of mourning,
the garment of praise instead of a faint spirit;
that they may be called oaks of righteousness,
the planting of the LORD, that he may be glorified.

When I see you quote it in part in this post it only confirms what the Lord has laid on my heart. The next verse says:

They shall build up the ancient ruins;
they shall raise up the former devastations;
they shall repair the ruined cities,
the devastations of many generations.

Repairing comes next. After reading Emily’s post yesterday, I’m like some of the other commenters. I picture you twiriling in bright pink skirts of Joy. Someday. Praying that in your grieving process you will be reminded constantly of His love and provision for you.
Love you, dear sister in Christ.

2 Niece December 29, 2010 at 12:44 pm

Please know, I am lifting you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

3 Deb December 29, 2010 at 1:35 pm

I learned of your loss thru our daughter, Jessica. I cannot even begin to imagine your pain. What a loving, kind, gracious Heavenly Father we serve who would save you and your entire family from harm. Please know that I’ve kept you in my heart. We may have never met…but we are sisters in Christ! In His Most Precious Love….and with mine…Deb Huffaker

4 randi December 29, 2010 at 1:56 pm

gosh, i can’t even imagine! my heart is heavy for your loss, but rejoicing at your tremendous blessing of life. i think it is simply amazing that you are all OK. all i can think is that 2011 will be the year you witness God’s hand making beauty from the ashes of your life. and, believe me, He is going to use this story for His glory in your personal life and here in the blogosphere. can’t wait to see what He does!

my prayer for you is JOY. His joy. (((HUGS)))for you!

5 Kristyn @ Good Gravy Crafts December 29, 2010 at 2:02 pm

I am touched by your Faith beyond words. I am praying for you all and hope your Faith continues as strong as it is now.

I am heart broken for you and your family….but God will get you through and you have the perfect foundation for knowing that already.

Godspeed to you and yours…..2011 will bring laughter into your heart again.

xx-Kristyn

6 Kristyn @ Good Gravy Crafts December 29, 2010 at 2:02 pm

I am touched by your Faith beyond words. I am praying for you all and hope your Faith continues as strong as it is now.

I am heart broken for you and your family….but God will get you through and you have the perfect foundation for knowing that already.

Godspeed to you and yours…..2011 will bring laughter into your heart again.

xx-Kristyn

7 Hadams December 29, 2010 at 2:12 pm

I don’t “know” you in person, but I have been enjoying your blog so much for quite some time now. Ever since I heard the news, I have been thinking about you and praying for you and your family. I wish I could give you a big hug.

8 Alison December 29, 2010 at 2:19 pm

Life is an echo..you get what you give…this is a testament to how you have been living your life, helping and giving to others…and being such a positive valuable source to so many. You touch so many even through this blog. We are all praying for you, thankful that no one was hurt. The good that you are seeing poured over you should be the overbearing humbling beautiful lesson. You are so lucky that you are loved so very much. We continue to pray and send you positive thoughts and love.

9 Debra December 29, 2010 at 2:23 pm

Edie…prayers for you from Franklin, TN. God is already stirring in you a new person as you walk this journey. I hear it in your words…the wrestling. What I have learned in the last year and half is that our God IS good and He is faithful to keep his promises to his children. I have also learned that life is hard and at some point in all our lives, we have this IT moment where the hugeness of Christ’s life and death and resurrection is so BIG and life changing…a child is born with a disability, a parent is taken away, a child is diagnosised with cancer, an earthly home is destroyed…we are never the same after these moments because God has allowed them in our lives to show us just how much He loves us and how favored we are. It is a hard journey but one that we are so blessed to be on because we see Christ in the flesh just like you have talked about. Thank you for sharing! ~ Debra M

10 Angela December 29, 2010 at 2:25 pm

You’ve profoundly touched so many lives that I know you are going to be profoundly cared for. You clearly know God is working here, through you. Thank you for graciously sacrificing so much so the rest of us may learn even more about God’s grace. I pray you are able to reconcile the sacrifice. Clarity will be revealed; maybe in your earthly life, maybe in Heaven. This is also where all that you’ve given will come back to you. You will survive and you will be stronger. We, distant and faceless friends, are all already stronger because of your strength in God.

11 Anne December 29, 2010 at 3:08 pm

Edie, words cannot express my sincere sorrow for your loss. You have been a light in the dark places for me since I found your blog two years ago. May the light of God’s mercy shine down on you and your precious family. Your grateful heart has been noticed and even through this great tribulation, you lead by example. You continue to be a light in the dark…even though darkness surrounds you, rest assured that the light of God’s grace still shines brightly through your words and your life.

“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” – Matthew 5:14-16

12 Amy Avery December 29, 2010 at 3:17 pm

Oh Edie, my prayers and thoughts continue for you and your family during this time. God’s glory abounds in your abundant faith in him. I am so struck by the power of your words, “I can’t help but thinking as we celebrate the incarnation of Christ—-that this is what it means to have Christ in the flesh. He works through others, to bring hope and life.” Amazing how God is working already through you in this tragedy because he had already been working through you before the tragedy occurred. You have allowed so many to see the face of Christ through you. Now you are seeing His face in others as they reach out to you in this time of need. You are truly loved dear Edie and we will continue to pray and be here for you.

13 Ckanenwisher December 29, 2010 at 3:47 pm

I too don’t know you but have followed your blog. I have been stunned and saddened by what has happened to your family. The first impression I got was that this couldn’t have happened to a nicer, stronger person. You have a gift of strength and it will get you through.
I’m sure you are still suffering from the sheer terror of that awful morning too. You probably go back and forth between such gratitude that your family is safe and yet horrible fear for what might have happened. You are also suffering from grief of loss. Loss is so painful. I can’t imagine your pain. I will continue to pray for you and your dear family.
I marvel at the kindness that has been shown you and I again am reminded of the good in so many people.
I wish I could be there to show that kindness. We’re all praying for you!

14 Rachel December 29, 2010 at 3:49 pm

Edie,
My heart is breaking for you…. The tears are flowing as I type. While I don’t know you in reality, by reading someone’s days in and out, I surely feel like it. I have been thinking of you almost constantly since I’ve heard and praying for you. Your outlook, your faith, your beauty is amazing. Beauty out of ashes is what I read in your words.

15 Marie December 29, 2010 at 3:57 pm

You and your family are in my prayers and I know God is hearing and answering them.

16 Marie December 29, 2010 at 3:57 pm

You and your family are in my prayers and I know God is hearing and answering them.

17 Trica December 29, 2010 at 3:58 pm

I’ve followed your blog for quite a while now, have watched you transform the mundane into beauty, have been amazed by your faith. I doubt that I ever actually meet you, but I wanted you to know that I’ve been praying for you and your family. I had a great grandmother who lost two homes to fire. You have given me a brief glimpse of how it must have been for her all those years ago. I inherited the set of milk glass Depression glass dishes she was given after her second fire. Beauty from the ashes. I can’t wait to see what God brings from your ashes! I will continue to pray for you as time goes on.

18 Trica December 29, 2010 at 3:58 pm

I’ve followed your blog for quite a while now, have watched you transform the mundane into beauty, have been amazed by your faith. I doubt that I ever actually meet you, but I wanted you to know that I’ve been praying for you and your family. I had a great grandmother who lost two homes to fire. You have given me a brief glimpse of how it must have been for her all those years ago. I inherited the set of milk glass Depression glass dishes she was given after her second fire. Beauty from the ashes. I can’t wait to see what God brings from your ashes! I will continue to pray for you as time goes on.

19 tara December 29, 2010 at 3:58 pm

Praying for you. And your family. I’m so glad that everyone is okay. But my heart breaks as I read your story.

20 tara December 29, 2010 at 3:58 pm

Praying for you. And your family. I’m so glad that everyone is okay. But my heart breaks as I read your story.

21 Anonymous December 29, 2010 at 4:49 pm

Edie,
Thank you for taking the time to update us on your family. You have remained constantly in my thoughts and prayers since I heard about your loss. If only I lived closer, I would cherish the opportunity to minister to your family personally. I am SO thankful to hear that you have been enveloped by such love and support. For the time being, allow those who love you to comfort and sustain you. For that is our most important purpose here on earth.
Love, Michelle (Vintagesquirrel)

22 Rhoda @ Southern Hospitality December 29, 2010 at 5:33 pm

Edie, I’ve been praying for you ever since I heard the news & encouraged my readers to do the same. I’m so very sorry for your loss & am crying reading your post. I can’t even imagine. Life can be so hard sometimes & we can’t understand the why’s, but you’ve written such a beautiful post about trust and grace and mercy. Thank you for that. I hope to see you in person so that I can give you a big hug. And I can’t wait to see what God does with all of this, because He will do something wonderful, you know? Blessings and peace I wish for you.

23 Cappriceyn December 29, 2010 at 5:58 pm

Edie, i always follow your blog and didn’t know of your loss until reading Nester this morning. You are such an amazing woman and you can do hard things. You have been a light for me and we’ve never even met. I pray for this to be a stepping stone for even happier days when you rebuild.

24 vkerby December 29, 2010 at 6:27 pm

Love and prayers to you Edie, thinking of you. You are an amazing woman, an inspiration to us all, you are in our ever thought. God keeps his promises I know he does. I know he will for you and your wonderful family. Much love to you dear.

25 Mott December 29, 2010 at 6:34 pm

Sweet, sweet Edie, It was so good to hear your voice. I am so sorry for your loss but am so grateful that your family escaped unharmed. God is good–all the time! Hold fast to your faith and know that the God of long ago is the God of today. He will get y’all through this. Just take it one day at a time. I know you can feel the love that’s being channeled your way! Love and prayers, Mott

26 Mott December 29, 2010 at 6:34 pm

Sweet, sweet Edie, It was so good to hear your voice. I am so sorry for your loss but am so grateful that your family escaped unharmed. God is good–all the time! Hold fast to your faith and know that the God of long ago is the God of today. He will get y’all through this. Just take it one day at a time. I know you can feel the love that’s being channeled your way! Love and prayers, Mott

27 KHanvey December 29, 2010 at 7:39 pm

In the midst of your tragedy, you are such an encouragement to me. God has used you to reveal to me the ways in which I cling to my earthly possessions and place so much value in them. Thank you for sharing your heart with us, and for letting God use you to change me. Praying for you and your family…

28 liz December 29, 2010 at 8:17 pm

Oh I am so sorry for your loss. I prasy that the details will be smooth and that God gives you rest. Will continue to pray.

This hits home for me. Four years ago the day before Thanksgiving my fathers house caught on fire. They were able to save the structure, had to gut it and do a whole remodle. They too lost Everything. No person was physically hurt they were not there but their two dogs and bird died. It started in the kitchen.

Your Faith is amazingly strong. My Dad and stepmother are not saved, and even that did not get them to look up to who they need most.

I prayed for them and God did do miracles, such as saving their important papers in a lock box.

I pray this for you as wel that any documents will be found unharmed.

29 Hailey December 29, 2010 at 8:21 pm

I’m a new follower. The Nester did her post, as you know, and I’m so blown away by your faithfulness to the Lord. Most people would use this as a reason to turn away from Him, yet you fall at His feet in thanksgiving and praise. Even in your devastation, know that you’re an awesome encouragement to so many others. He will turn your mourning into dancing. Just give it time. Prayers are being sent your way. Blessings on you and your family! 3

30 abby s December 29, 2010 at 8:24 pm

thank you for your testament to God’s faithfulness as you stand on his promises

31 JJ December 29, 2010 at 9:31 pm

Praying for you!

32 Se7en December 29, 2010 at 9:43 pm

What can i say besides I am so sorry. I have learnt so much from you and your heart and now is the time I would like to just send some love and prayers back your way… My heart goes out to you and your kids… praying for peace of mind for you all.

33 Heather December 29, 2010 at 10:19 pm

I’ve read your blog for a couple of years now and am astounded at the awesome words you are able to string together, how giving you are as a mother to decide to stay home with your children and homeschool them on top of everything, your beautiful family, and your ability to be such a domestic goddess. I’m truly sorry for your loss…I can’t even fathom what you must be going through. You and yours are so fortunate and blessed to have God and his Word to lean on at this time of desperate need. Not only that but it sounds like you have a wonderful support system there to lift you up when you stumble.
Please know that we are praying for you and your family here in Texas.

34 Anonymous December 29, 2010 at 11:18 pm

Only by the grace of God…you are all safe.

I have been thinking of you and your family and praying for you ever since I heard the devastating news. I sat here reading this with tears running down my face. I cannot even imagine going through this. I am so glad to hear that you have so much support. I will continue to pray for you and your family as you put your lives back together.

35 Anonymous December 29, 2010 at 11:18 pm

Only by the grace of God…you are all safe.

I have been thinking of you and your family and praying for you ever since I heard the devastating news. I sat here reading this with tears running down my face. I cannot even imagine going through this. I am so glad to hear that you have so much support. I will continue to pray for you and your family as you put your lives back together.

36 Nddelaney December 30, 2010 at 12:13 am

I’m so sorry…there are just no words. You are all safe and that is what matters. bloggy hugs and prayers to you and your family

37 Anonymous December 30, 2010 at 1:09 am

You and your precious family have been on my mind (and in my prayers) all week. What a beautiful testimony of faith in the midst of the storm you have been. A true Life In Grace.

Sending hugs your way. One day, when you have time, here’s a little treasure for you: Nahum 1:7

38 Papanena99 December 30, 2010 at 1:52 am

I have just started reading your blog. I am blown away by your faith and trust. I am praying for you and yours as you walk this road. His Grace is sufficient!!!

39 Leeann Farr December 30, 2010 at 2:33 am

I had tears in my eyes when I read your post. How terrible for you and your family. Recovery… so slow. I want you to know that there are people praying for you that you don’t even know. God is going to surround you with a wall of courage and grace that you don’t even know that you have. I pray right now that the spirit of our Heavenly Father will engulf you and help you to stand firm. Deuteronomy 31:6 “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified …, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Prayers and love!

40 Lindsay @ Living With Lindsay December 30, 2010 at 2:33 am

Bless you and your family, Sweet Edie.

41 Magpie220 December 30, 2010 at 2:43 am

edie i just started reading your blog. i am very sorry. i know words can’t replace the things that you have lost. i am very glad that your family is safe and sound. i hope that in the future your new home will be just as pretty as your old one. i can’t imagine what you and your family are going through. i was shocked when i found out about your house. but i know every thing will be okay one day. one day when your feeling better still remember “YOUR LIFE CAN CHANGE IN ONE MINUTE” i live but this quote.. it may sound deep and dark but it is true….
XOXOXO Mag!!

42 Countrycollector December 30, 2010 at 2:59 am

This is such a moving life situation of testing of faith… The grief is real, the loss and pain are real.. and God is also real.. He is faithful and just and has already shown his faithfulness… it is now up to those who are people of faith to hold this family up daily.. hourly to get them through these dark days… till the sun shines again..

43 Angela December 30, 2010 at 3:10 am

Sandy at RE sent us your blog so that we can be praying for you! The generosity and love of it all mixed with a huge loss truly must be so overwhelming! I’m so sorry and so happy everyone is safe! I’m excited to watch as God creates in you new eyes to see His amazing ways and to see Him build a new home for you and your family!

44 DrBabyMamaDrama December 30, 2010 at 3:15 am

I have been praying for your family since I heard the news. The Lord is good and although His goodness is not always what we think of as good, He is good.

45 FringeGirl December 30, 2010 at 3:41 am

I pray God restores you ten fold! You and your family are in my prayers. Thanking God you are all safe.

46 Sassybeve December 30, 2010 at 11:18 am

Praying for you and your family. As a teen, I lived through an “after Christmas” fire and my heart is heavy for you. FringeGirl’s Mom.

47 Marlene December 30, 2010 at 4:58 am

Edie~ I just found your blog this week and am aching for you. As I read your blog I am sick thinking of what you are going through. I also found out my friend out of state also lost her home in an early morning fire yesterday. Your blog has given me insight to what my friend must be feeling. It’s hard being away from friends who are going through difficult times. I’m praising God that you and your family are safe and his protection was over you. May God grant you strength as you must be physically, mentally and emotionally drained. May HE be your rock

Love and prayers!

48 Amy December 30, 2010 at 5:33 am

I am so sorry, Edie. I know not what to say other than that.

I am so thankful that all of you are safe and physically untouched. I know your heart is broken. I praise God that He is the mender of broken hearts. He is the mender of your heart, sweet lady.

In Him and through Him,

Amy (from middle Tennessee, not too very far away from you)

49 Anonymous December 30, 2010 at 6:36 am

Edie, I only recently started following your blog. I am heart broken and crying tears as I read this. But I am so very thankful to God that you, your husband and your children are all safe. That is by far the most important. Nothing can compare. I will continue to pray for you. I have no words. Just know I am praying.

50 Expressmom December 30, 2010 at 7:27 am

Your ability to be grateful to your friends and your appreciation of all that wasn’t lost, fills my heart with joy. This seemingly senseless event is not. You have shown grace and shared it, and that helps those of us who are not suffering to appreciate all we have.

I am sorry for all your pain, but thank you for sharing and reminding me to be uplifted by the important things in life; healthy children, loving friends and a complete family.

51 Kristi December 30, 2010 at 8:27 am

Wow. So touching. Your human-ness, yet your faith. Even in your devastation you are being a light to others with your honesty about your feelings, but also clinging to the only surety you know, in Christ. Thank you for sharing these painful days with us, and for trusting us with that pain and uncertainty, vulnerability. So glad your loved ones are all safe and sound, definitely what a miracle! My prayers are with you and your family on your journey to wholeness. God Bless!

52 Threehautemamas December 30, 2010 at 10:38 am

Oh Edie, to see your baby saving your babies is something no mother should ever have to experience but bless her heart. Your family is safe, dogs too! A thousand blessings on you all. Xoxo

53 Tracey December 30, 2010 at 11:09 am

Eddie, I have been following your wonderful words of encoragement and love for over a year now. I have learn’t so much from your blog over this time. As you walk in this valley … again you show us your love of God and are still sharing your faith… you are an amazing woman of faith and love. May God continue to bless your wonderful family. I will continue to pray for you all here in New Zealand

54 Chele December 30, 2010 at 12:51 pm

I have been praying since I heard through others. I am so sorry you and your family have to deal with this. Thankfully everyone got out safe. Even more that we all have others who are Jesus hands and feet! He is always there in our desperate times of need. I’ve had a rough few months with being diagnosed with cancer… I know how hard it is to be devastated but at the same time be rejoicing in His love, mercy and grace! I just can’t imagine what you are going through right now and I will be praying for you and your family! I think every parents worse fear is a fire and getting to the kids… Praising God for your daughter this morning!

55 Susan December 30, 2010 at 1:44 pm

You have been in my thoughts and prayers. I admire you.

Susan

56 Anonymous December 30, 2010 at 1:53 pm

Oh Edie, I am so sorry for your great loss. But I am so thankful that it is all replaceable. I pray that God would get great glory. He must have found y’all worthy to face the valley of the shadow of death. Praying for you and rejoicing with you for His mercy.

57 Ann Morton Voskamp December 30, 2010 at 3:41 pm

Dearest Edie…

My prayer from Ps. 147 this morning, it whispered your name:

“The Lord rebuilds Jerusalem : he gathers the exiles of Israel.

He heals the brokenhearted : and binds up their wounds.

He counts the number of the stars : and calls them all by their names.

Great is our Lord and mighty in power : there is no limit to his wisdom.

The Lord lifts up…”

He’ll rebuild and gather you and He will heal you and bind you. He knows the names of the stars and He knows your name and He loves you Edie living in grace and He will lift you up and you will be that beautiful red bird soaring high, right into His never-ending heart.

I love you… and I whisper prayers with your name, beautiful Edie…

Rest now, sweet friend… the soaring will come, the soaring will come, Edie…. He carries you on wings of Grace, my friend…
All’s grace,
Ann

58 edie wadsworth October 30, 2011 at 1:34 am

My dear Ann,
I’ve been in whirlwind lately, soaking up every moment of the perfect provisions of Christ.  How He has purposed to use everything for grace.  But I’ve also wanted to revisit this wound lately and then here you are—encouraging me from last year, from what feels like a world away.  I’ve spent hours in your book, being ministered to by you and I want you to know that I know you are part of this wonderful plan and provision —-sent on divine appointment to bind up the brokenhearted.  I will meet you some day and I will not be able to hold back the tears.  You are precious to me and I love you.
You are so  right.   All is grace.  All is gift.
My deepest affections,
xo,
edie

59 ellen December 30, 2010 at 3:49 pm

i am continuing to lift you up in prayer, friend. as i was praying for you the other day, i thought, “such a thing, Lord. to be displaced on Christmas.” and in that moment, His Spirit gently nudged me. a Savior born in a manger. a Savior who had no place to lay His head. and i knew that He knows your pain right now. and He is blanketing you with His presence.

and as i read this post, i think of Jacob. in the desert and wrestling with the angel of the Lord. he walked with a limp, yes. but a beautiful limp; the evidence of God having reached down and touched his life. i am so humbled by you. you’ll walk through this with grace and beauty. pain, too. but beauty in that.

60 ellen December 30, 2010 at 3:49 pm

i am continuing to lift you up in prayer, friend. as i was praying for you the other day, i thought, “such a thing, Lord. to be displaced on Christmas.” and in that moment, His Spirit gently nudged me. a Savior born in a manger. a Savior who had no place to lay His head. and i knew that He knows your pain right now. and He is blanketing you with His presence.

and as i read this post, i think of Jacob. in the desert and wrestling with the angel of the Lord. he walked with a limp, yes. but a beautiful limp; the evidence of God having reached down and touched his life. i am so humbled by you. you’ll walk through this with grace and beauty. pain, too. but beauty in that.

61 Melanie December 30, 2010 at 4:02 pm

I too have been praying for you since I heard the news. I don’t know the words to say to bring comfort. I blogged and sent the word out to pray and I know that many people are doing just that. My heart aches for you and your family. I cried while reading your post. You faith and and love for the Lord with see you through. Just know that many people who don’t know you are wrapping you in love and prayers. And I am one of them.

62 Katie December 30, 2010 at 10:49 pm

Just discovered your blog some time last week and stumbled upon it again. I cannot imagine what you have been through, but I am praying for you and your family and this hard time.

63 Kimmyox79 December 30, 2010 at 11:42 pm

Your family is in my thoughts. I pray that the Lord will continue to sustain, fortify, protect, and keep you. “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to make you prosper and NOT for your demise.”

64 Samantha Kelley December 31, 2010 at 12:09 am

Edie,
I had only been to your blog a couple times before your tragedy. Your words made me cry. We are also studying Job. What a powerful book. There are some things we will never know “why”, you wonderfully show how to trust Him anyway. I am praying for your family.

65 Rhonda December 31, 2010 at 3:58 am

I am so very thankful that you and your family are safe, although I know the loss you suffered still pulls at your heart. I pray that God will bring you peace, Edie, and I know that He will use you in ways you never thought possible.

66 Minnesotamom December 31, 2010 at 4:32 am

Oh, Edie…I was shocked when your news came up in my feed reader, and we prayed for your family and have been. It is so, so good to have this Solid Foundation, to Whom you are clinging. And though you are still in the ashes, the words you have written here have glory in them. Peace to you and your family as God rebuilds your lives and expands your faith.

67 Suzanne B December 31, 2010 at 5:35 am

Dear Edie – this is my first time at your blog – I heard about you via Blessed LIfe blog. I’ve read this post probably 5 times, tears in my eyes, moved by your raw emotion. I am so thankful your family was spared any physical harm. The Lord is good! One of my favorite scriptures is Jeremiah 29:11. In a situation like yours, in all your moments of broken despair, tempered with true thanksgiviing, I can’t wait to see what God does through all of this, for you, with you, etc. I believe that as time passes, the pieces of the future will reveal themselves and you will find a peace with all of this. Thank you for posting though such a time as this – I will be standing by, rooting you on, anxious to see God’s hand in your restorations in your lives.

Much love and prayers!

Suzanne B from San Diego

68 Lauren December 31, 2010 at 7:08 am

Edie, you and your family will continue to be in my prayers. I pray for your peace and assurance. Our GOD is an awesome GOD.

69 Lindsey December 31, 2010 at 6:01 pm

Edie,

I am praying for you and your family.

In His Love,

Lindsey

70 Liveacolorfullife December 31, 2010 at 10:01 pm

I “found” you on December 22, through a link on a quilting blog, for a recipe for fudge. And learned how to take bokeh pictures. You touched my heart. And then I learned of the devastation your family is living. Five years ago we experienced a completely different type of devastation, but this verse has sustained me through very dark hours: Joshua 1:9: Have I not commanded you?Be strong and courageous. do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” In the dark hours of the night it is hard to be courageous and not discouarged, but you do not take this journey alone. Friends, family and people you will never meet will be walking along side you and sending up prayers on your behalf.

Cindy

71 barbara@hodge:podge December 31, 2010 at 11:09 pm

I was saddened to hear about your devastating ordeal. I pray that your family will find hope and strength through this terrible time. May the New Year bring you health, happiness and a new home.

Hugs from afar,
Barbara

72 Sally Mangham December 31, 2010 at 11:14 pm

Hi Edie, I discovered your blog on Christmas day! Today I revisted back and read the series of events which lead to your loss. I am really sorry and very very sad for you and your family. I cried tears for you and your family. You see when I was about six years old my childhood home burnt to the ground and your story weighs heavy on my heart. There was nothing left of my earthly belongings, but my loving family which included two dogs too! I am really sorry for your loss and want you to know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Warmest regards, Sally

73 sherry hart December 31, 2010 at 11:21 pm

Edie….I have not been here before but after reading your words I have such a heavy heart this New Years Eve. You have reminded me what is important in life. Unfortunately time is the great healer along with our God and neither moves at the pace we want them to. Peace for you and your family.
Sincerely,
Sherry

74 Joni Gerking January 1, 2011 at 6:33 am

Dear Edie,

My heart hurts for you and your family. All your tears are precious to our loving Father God.

As I read your story, I could feel the painful bewilderment and extreme thankfulness to God for His protection. My home burned to the ground just a few days before Thanksgiving seven years ago. It is both a long time ago and only an instant past. The numbness and overwhelming sense of being lost even in the midst of praising God for His generosity and love pour over me.

The gift of a friend was to sit with my husband and me, to tell us that the loss of our home and everything in it was measurable to the loss of a spouse. We were to expect and accept the intense grief and confusion without a sense of guilt. We must allow ourselves to grieve, to talk about it when we wanted to talk and to be free not to discuss it, as well.

Your ability to communicate amazes me. It was nearly a year before I could pray coherently. I wanted to speak, but all that would come out was, “Father,” and “thank you.”

I am so thankful for the gift of community and love that surrounds you. Be patient and gentle with yourselves. As Christians, we do not grieve as the pagans do. We still grieve, but we have hope. Beauty for ashes. Literally.

One more thing. People are funny. Sometimes they are funny in a good way and sometimes in a very painful way. It is inexplicable, but true, that often the things that people insist on giving when one’s home is destroyed are broken, dirty, stained and unattractive or unusable. You don’t have to accept these things. Ask God for a kind way to refuse the “offer” and move on. Someday when you can do the giving, you can share what you have learned. I will continue to pray for you.

Your sister in Christ,
Joni Gerking

75 Lindsey Stanton January 1, 2011 at 11:23 am

Edie and family,

I found this post through another blog, your story both brings me sadness for you guys, but also hope as the light you have shone through the pain is a wonderful sign of God’s grace in your life. Praising Him in every season of your soul. I pray blessings for you and yours this year of rebuilding.

76 Ros January 1, 2011 at 12:10 pm

I’m reading your story from thousands of miles away … a stranger to you … but thinking of you all and sending prayers that I hope will comfort you …

77 Tiffany @ NOH January 1, 2011 at 12:28 pm

Dear Edie,
This was my first visit to your blog after I saw a few words about the event on Reluctant Entertainer.
Wow. I had tears in my eyes as I read about God’s amazing grace. It is truly a miracle that your family came through this unscathed…but of course a bit rattled. My little family was also cradled by God’s angels earlier this year when we had a horrible car accident that everyone said we shouldn’t have walked away from. Know that it will take time to recover and heal emotionally, but you will learn and grow from this. God is with you and has a plan.

May 2011 hold more blessings and grace than you can ever imagine. My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.

78 bridget {bakeat350} January 1, 2011 at 3:52 pm

So glad that your family is ok…your post is such a powerful reminder of what is really important. Wishing you peace and comfort as your family starts the new year.

79 peggy January 1, 2011 at 3:57 pm

I have read and re-read your post. Again, I just pulled it up and read this to my husband… I could hardly read it aloud because the tears were choking my throat. What I see in this that pulls so hard on me is you unwavering devotion to Jesus through it all. At a time when so many would be mad at God, you turn to Him… because He is still sovereign! Thank you for being real… authentic. Hugs

80 Anonymous January 1, 2011 at 6:25 pm

oh my goodness…my heart breaks for you and your family. I just pray that this new year would bring renewed hope, joy, peace, restoration and a feeling of “home”. You are incredibly blessed with what sounds like amazing friends, families and even strangers. I pray that in your times of feeling heavy and whatever other feelings you will experience, that you will feel Daddy’s arms around you, holding you and loving you and breathing hope, peace and joy into you. Big Hugs.

81 Mishelle Lane January 2, 2011 at 1:51 am

I’ve thought of you so many times since I heard the news. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

82 Evelyn January 2, 2011 at 5:47 am

Thank God you are all ok….and you know, it’s just *stuff*. The most precious things aren’t things…they’re your husband, children, parents and friends. I lost my husband to cancer at Christmas 4 years ago. Nothing in this whole world has substituted for him. My life has been a completely different existence without him. I would trade the *stuff* to have him back anytime. Don’t be so sad and depressed…you still have the most precious gifts God has given you.

83 Lisa Currie-Gurney January 2, 2011 at 3:26 pm

HOPE…

84 Tricia Lawrence January 3, 2011 at 5:30 am

Edie,

Just heard the news. Virtual hugs and love and prayers and tears and shock. I am SO GRATEFUL to GOD you all are safe. I am praying for peace for you all. You are loved with an everlasting love and underneath are the everlasting arms.

Please ask if you need anything. We are all here for you and your family.

Tricia Lawrence

85 Gail January 3, 2011 at 5:32 am

(((((((((hugs)))))))))

86 Tammy Shockley January 3, 2011 at 3:47 pm

Edie, I am at loss for words. Drew just called me and was telling me the news of the fire. My heart just breaks for you and your family. I wish I had known before now. You know we love you and if there is anything we can do we will be there. You are so strong and I know you will put the pieces back in it’s place. I will pray that your life will soon be back to normal. We thank God you are all safe, it could have been so much worse. We love you all. God Bless

87 Livinglocurto January 3, 2011 at 4:02 pm

Hi Edie- I met you briefly at Blissdom last year and am crying as I read your post. How amazing that nobody was hurt! God was watching over you all. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family as you go through this life changing time.

88 Sarah Parham January 3, 2011 at 5:55 pm

I am so, so sorry for your family’s loss. Our Family too had a fire just this past February – not yet one year ago. Everything that matters was saved that night – the rest is just stuff. I promise you, it is just stuff and you will rise again and will be thankful for all God has given. You have a chance to grow as a family in ways that not many ever do. The coming months will have times that royally suck for sure, but you will survive and life will be great! Your children will learn that even when life is so hard, families ride it out together and will still laugh. They have a chance to see you and your husband’s love for each other and God get you through. They will have a chance to KNOW that there is so much more to life than stuff – how many times did we try to teach them and even ourselves that one? You are so talented – just think what you can re-design? (I have already prayed you have insurance). I in no way want to demisish your loss but I can tell you we were there and now that we are through it, we are in a place that we could never have gotten to without that fire and I am so blessed to be here. Try to hang in there and know so many people are praying for you all.

Love, Sarah Parham – Orillia, Ontario, Canada

89 Matt Rouse January 3, 2011 at 7:03 pm

Edie and Family… my wife showed me your post, which inspired my own post… http://deustecum.com/2011/01/03/on-blogging/. Thank you. Matt

90 Katchenweaver January 4, 2011 at 3:26 pm

I found your blog through Lyndsey. I have cried reading this post. My sister lost her house and everything two days before Chrsitmas two years ago. I remember so vividly what you are describing. I have watched her walk this journey and seen her children (who all got out safe as well) grow and watch her amazing strength, weakness, and surrender the Lord of her emotions and feelings and everything basically. She has a firm belief in Jesus which helped her through everything. If you would like to talk down the road to someone who has been through this. Perhaps not now but months from now when you are weary from the paperwork, when you are dealing with children who are processing or when you are grieving or rejoicing in triumphs I would love to connect the two of you. For now I am praying for your family.

91 Kjw28412 January 4, 2011 at 3:56 pm

Every time a faithful servant serves
A brother that’s in need
What happens at that moment is a miracle indeed
As they look to one another in an instant it is clear
Only Jesus is visible for they’ve both disappeared
(Michael Card)

Only Jesus is visible – oh how he loves us.

92 Linsey @ LLH Designs January 4, 2011 at 8:18 pm

I don’t know how I’ve missed knowing about your blog until now, but here I am today…completely leveled by this post. I needed tears to flow today (I could just feel it), and this is how God brought them out of my otherwise “stuck” heart today. Tears for you, tears for my own heart, but most of all…tears over the God who keeps his promises.

My words don’t feel like enough today, but I’ll be back here checking on you and seeing what God has to say to my heart as he pieces your story together.

love and hugs from Houston,
Linsey

93 Angie-Bigbearswife January 4, 2011 at 8:20 pm

I’m sending my prayers to your and your family! I am so sorry for what has happened!

94 Allie January 4, 2011 at 9:52 pm

This is the first time I have ever read your blog. I do not know you and yet I cried as I read through your post. My heart aches for you and all that was lost and yet I rejoice in all that was saved. I see Christ as I read your story. I see Christ in you and in so many others who are sharing His love with your family. Thank you for allowing God to use you and your circumstances to glorify Him. Someday it will all make sense…

95 keri January 4, 2011 at 9:56 pm

oh my goodness. this whole world of blogging never ceases to amaze me. i stumbled across your blog through another blog and i feel i was meant to read it. you are so brave edie. and such a survivor. nothing happens by accident-your guests that night were truly your angels. i hope and pray you are able to put the pieces back together…thank you for sharing your story and offering those of us who still have every’thing’ a glimpse of what if…and a reminder to never take any’thing’/anyone for granted. i will hold you in my thoughts and prayers.

96 Yarngirl13 January 4, 2011 at 10:04 pm

Wow. I am so sorry for your loss. I am so happy that you and your family are alive, healthy and well. Healing will take time and words can’t express how much I hope you all heal quickly. What an incredible loss.

I wish you all the chance to smile, laugh and live life again. You are such lucky people to have family and friends that are so giving of love and resources. I envy you.

Just like Allie (see comments), this is the first time I’ve read your blog and sit in my office crying for your loss, but also for the immense emotion of joy that you are being well taken care of.

God Bless.

97 Annmarin123 January 4, 2011 at 10:33 pm

Oh my gosh- I don’t know what to say– I have loved your blog, and all the beauty you created in that home! I am praying-hard-for you and know you and your family are in our thoughts–I know you will persevere–
God bless- Ann

98 Ada in Coastal Cali January 5, 2011 at 1:34 am

I am reading this & my body stops breathing. not optionally, unable. I am aching for you & your family and yet see how He & His grace is so woven throughout this its unexplainable. Oh good grief, its so so sad to think of all that is gone & how much they are cherished….you write with such grace, your amply named. by Life in Grace, for indeed you are.
you are in my prayers. & now my heart, I will keep tabs on how He blesses you.
~Ada in Coastal Cali

99 Esther Glick January 5, 2011 at 1:54 am

*HUGS!* God is good – ALL THE TIME!

100 Val January 5, 2011 at 3:25 am

Edie, you are amazing! God will make every provision for you even before you know that you have a need. HE is amazing like that, but you know that side of HIM already. I can tell by your words, your smile, your family. God has blessed you and will continue too!

May you and your family know that from here in Southern Illinois to your hearts our thoughts and prayers are for God’s continued provisions, for HIS continued love and for HIS continued strength!

You will smile again Edie and from this side of blogland we can’t wait to see it!

101 Janenes2001 January 5, 2011 at 4:10 am

Edie,

I pray for peace in your heart.I pray for your strength to soar above this trying time. I pray for you, your family, and all the intentions of your heart.

102 Kathvdk January 5, 2011 at 5:06 am

SOooo terribly sorry for the loss of your home.
I stumbled upon your story tonight & so grateful I did, that I can pray for you & your family. As I read, a thought was “Isn’t the body of Christ amazing”? Those physically close to you had the opportunity to wrap thier arms around you & be Jesus to you…
Our dear Church friends went thru the exact same thing last year, the day after Christmas, in a home our Church family had helped them build for thier 3 special needs children. They are now in a much better place. Only God knows…. though the loss is devastating.
Another thought I had…. someone just said to me over Christmas was “that blogs are pretty much self-serving” & my thought was “Oh no they are not” I am pretty new to this medium but so overwhelmed by the love I see on a daily basis in blogland. The love I see here just proves it.
From a devotional I read recently….
“What is over our heads, is under His feet”
Know that before you get up each morning, I have already prayed for you…. Much Love…. Hugs & Blessings

103 Peggy January 5, 2011 at 5:12 am

I got chills reading about your daughter leading the younger kids out of the burning house. I wonder what plans the Lord has for her life?

You are all in my thoughts and prayers. I’m so glad everyone is safe.

104 Peggy January 5, 2011 at 5:12 am

I got chills reading about your daughter leading the younger kids out of the burning house. I wonder what plans the Lord has for her life?

You are all in my thoughts and prayers. I’m so glad everyone is safe.

105 Brunella January 5, 2011 at 9:30 am

From Italy: An angel guides me in this pages, dearest edie. I don’t know how, but i’m here. My english is not perfect, i’m sorry. but my heart and my soul understands all the spirituals words. This morning i pray and i burn a candle for you and your family.
in the name of God we are brothers.
Brunella

106 Jade @ No Longer 25 January 5, 2011 at 10:39 am

I’m just catching up after a break, I’m so sorry to hear about your house, so glad that you all got out ok though. I hope things sort them out, it seems you are due some good luck.
Thinking about you,
Jade

107 Ekdoherty January 5, 2011 at 1:19 pm

Dear Edie-
I stumbled upon your post, no, correct that- I WAS LED TO YOUR POST this morning by our loving, merciful God, As I read each sentence my heart was breaking for your loss but at the same time I was receiving a blessing from your words by my own loss at Christmas. You see, I lost my precious twin brother a week before Christmas. I won’t go into the details, but his illness and passing has taken it’s toll on me and my husband over the past months. Although we take comfort that he is with Jesus and no longer has pain or suffering, the persistent questions of “why”
and “what it” have filled my thoughts, dreams and prayers. I wanted clarity and reasons why my sweet brother had to endure all that he had endured over the last months of his life. He has
had more than his share of problems his whole life having cerebral palsy and being confined to a wheelchair. Your reference to Job, and the reassurance that God doesn’t give explanations, He gives promises, has opened my eyes and has helped me understand that I may never know the reasons why, but with faith in Him, I have His promise. Your post has blessed me today, and may the Lord continue to bless you with His outpouring of love through others and his unending mercy and grace. Karen

108 Pmontalvo514 January 5, 2011 at 3:52 pm

With tears running down my face I read this blog post to my Husband. Today is my first time visiting, and I am learning quickly what a remarkable woman you are! I am praying prayers of Thanksgiving along with you. Our God is a Awesome God! You lived through every Mothers worst nightmare…..our children being in life threatening danger and not being able to get to them. Praise God our Father for delivering them to you safely. I will continue to pray for you and your family as you endure this hardship, but I have great faith that just as God restored Job, he will restore you and your family two fold Job 42:10 Happy Birthday, Dear One! Blessings! Paula <3

109 Sheila January 5, 2011 at 4:02 pm

I am sooo sorry about your home. I am thrilled everyone including the dogs are fine. It sounds like you have loving family and friends. God will be there through the bad and happy days also. Take care. Wishing you and your family the best.

110 Lizziebeth60 January 5, 2011 at 4:31 pm

Oh, Edie, my heart hurts so for you, but also rejoices with you that your family escaped the fire unharmed. God truly was with each of you every step of the way that night, and he will continue to be with you as you heal and continue with your journey on earth. I know he has great plans for all of you. So many people know you personally or through a long relationship in blogland, but you don’t know me. I’ve followed your blog, but never commented until now. I originally found you through my Google search for “turquoise kitchen.” I wanted so much to have a turquoise kitchen and wondered if there were any examples on the net. I found your post only days after you posted it. I’ve been a follower ever since. Because of you, I had the courage to have the kitchen of my dreams. When it was finished, early last spring, some of my friends & family asked me where I got the courage to go so bold. I told them about a lady online named Edie who had the most beautiful kitchen with turquoise and white cabinets and that I’d been hooked on her blog ever since. In light of all you are going through, this seems like such a small and silly thing to tell you about. I’m ashamed I never thanked you for that. So, thank you, Edie for all your wonderful posts on decorating, baking and creativity in your home. But, much more than that kept me glued to your blog. Your kind and loving spirit and your words of encouragement and hope to strangers like me as we all walk the road of life together is what kept me on your blog long after the decision about my kitchen was carried out. Your blog is titled, Life in Grace, and I know why and what it means. But, Edie, YOU are so full of grace and kindness and humility and have love for strangers and friends alike. And you are loved, too, even from those of us at great distances who only know you through your blog but feel like you are a friend. We are all praying for you and your family as you go through the process of rebuilding and coming to terms with what you’ve lost but also what you’ve gained from this experience. I know God will continue to use you to bless others, as he has used you to bless me. Much love from south Texas, Beth

111 Stacimeyer00 January 5, 2011 at 7:49 pm

Wow – I just stumbled across your blog and I am so touched by your story. We are so blessed to serve such a big God. I’m so thankful that he is providing for you and your family and that no one was hurt in the fire. You will be in our prayers. I know that the Lord will heal every empty place in your heart and you and your family will be blessed tremendously for your faith during this time.

Psalm 126:5 Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.

112 Stacimeyer00 January 5, 2011 at 7:49 pm

Wow – I just stumbled across your blog and I am so touched by your story. We are so blessed to serve such a big God. I’m so thankful that he is providing for you and your family and that no one was hurt in the fire. You will be in our prayers. I know that the Lord will heal every empty place in your heart and you and your family will be blessed tremendously for your faith during this time.

Psalm 126:5 Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.

113 stace January 5, 2011 at 8:47 pm

for i consider that the sufferings of this time are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed to us. romans 8:18

114 Melissa G January 6, 2011 at 3:19 am

Sending you and your family love and prayers from Missouri!

115 Wanda January 6, 2011 at 4:30 am

Edie
I just have no words. I keep thinking…..hugs, tears, overwhelming thankfulness, more tears…..pain, loss, more thankfulness!

I’m praying. He’s listening. Your words soothed me and I’m not starting over. God reign down your glory over this family. Hold on tight, sister!

So very thankful for this testimony! What is HE up to? Be ready.

116 Wanda January 6, 2011 at 4:30 am

Edie
I just have no words. I keep thinking…..hugs, tears, overwhelming thankfulness, more tears…..pain, loss, more thankfulness!

I’m praying. He’s listening. Your words soothed me and I’m not starting over. God reign down your glory over this family. Hold on tight, sister!

So very thankful for this testimony! What is HE up to? Be ready.

117 amber@therunamuck January 6, 2011 at 12:57 pm

Not many words from me, Edie: only that Emily was right. You’re one I want to be like, because you shine Jesus. I believe these promises for you, too, and now that I’ve read this, I believe them more for myself as well.

Endure. Endure. Endure.

118 Mildredwnalley January 6, 2011 at 4:26 pm

May God continue to strengthen you and give you peace during this time. So many are touched by your faith and gratitude.

119 Taracourt89 January 6, 2011 at 4:34 pm

Dear Edie & Family~

I happened upon your blog just moments ago…through my tears, these are the words that come to me(for you)

You & your family are about to embark on an Amazing Journey…when you are Ready to look back at this time in your life..You will be Amazed at how Far I have brought you!
Be still and Know that I AM GOD!

120 Lovethedecor January 6, 2011 at 5:17 pm

I am so sorry!
May the peace and comfort only our Lord can give surround you during this time!!

121 Tammy Johnson Berbells January 6, 2011 at 11:41 pm

Edie…I just came upon your blog from another. I have tears in my eyes as I feel your pain. You will get through this. I think of the verse I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil. 4:13. I will be praying for you in the days to come and will be coming back to check on you. Sending you love and hugs!

122 Bella January 7, 2011 at 12:17 am

Edie, I am new to your blog, and came after reading about your BIRTHDAY, so first off HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! The only thing that kept going thru my mind, reading about how your daughter JUST happened to be upstairs, to rescue the little ones. My whole body had goosebumps, at the thought, and helplessness you would have felt, until you saw them all safe.

I would never know the feeling you went thru, or what you are feeling now, but naturally after reading this, I had to say hello, and I am happy you are back. I look forward to seeing your new life, and how you will make it even more fabulous than before. :)

Bella :)

123 Renae Moore January 7, 2011 at 2:05 am

Dear Edie,
My heart aches for you and your family. I am blessed by your strength in the Lord and know that HE knows all and holds us all in the palm of HIS hand. My husband and I prayed for you tonight and will continue. God is so good, it really is miraculous that all of you got out safely. Jeremiah 29:11 comes to mind, “for I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you to give you hope and a future” (paraphrased). God restores the brokenhearted.
I came to you by Sibi, you both are precious Sisters in the Lord.
Many blessings from Atlanta.
Hugs too…..Renae

124 my beautiful mess January 8, 2011 at 12:41 am

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

125 my beautiful mess January 8, 2011 at 12:41 am

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

126 Nina January 9, 2011 at 2:55 am

Dear Edie,
What an amazing woman you are. I can’t shake your blog. I can’t stop thinking about your tragedy. I have come back here 4 times today. I have shared it with my children, my husband and on my facebook wall. My family has just come out of a very tough year, seeing what you are going through and how you are handling it has meant so much to me. I love your faith, your honesty, and your willingness to share it with us. Thank you.

127 Amanda@DAES of our Lives January 11, 2011 at 3:25 am

I just discovered your blog…and what a story you have to share! Psalm 91 is such an encouragement to me, I’m saying a prayer for you tonight.

128 Anitacmomof3 January 11, 2011 at 2:45 pm

..WOW.. I am in amazement of the way I was brought to your site.. only to be challenged..by you …( I found your site through a friends blog who suffered a great loss last week).. her husbands brother, also my husbands best friend.. died last week only 2 days after his birthday.. so we are feeling a loss as well… God has used you to minister to me in this time..thank you…and I will pray for you as well…

129 Dawn January 11, 2011 at 6:22 pm

Edie, I stumbled over your threshold today, and as I was reading your blog – I kept hearing the word “hope” ringing in my heart again and again. So I went to look up verses with hope in them. You know what I found? I found that the book of Job has more references to the word hope than any other, except Psalms. Isn’t that interesting that Father had already put Job on your heart before the trial even began….

Praying for more and more and more grace to be poured out upon you…and for hope. Hope from the very heart of our Lord to you, personally…and intimately, the way that He loves us so very best!
In Him,
Dawn

130 Dawn January 11, 2011 at 6:22 pm

Edie, I stumbled over your threshold today, and as I was reading your blog – I kept hearing the word “hope” ringing in my heart again and again. So I went to look up verses with hope in them. You know what I found? I found that the book of Job has more references to the word hope than any other, except Psalms. Isn’t that interesting that Father had already put Job on your heart before the trial even began….

Praying for more and more and more grace to be poured out upon you…and for hope. Hope from the very heart of our Lord to you, personally…and intimately, the way that He loves us so very best!
In Him,
Dawn

131 Jenn January 12, 2011 at 11:13 pm

still praying for you that “as the days, so shall your strength be…” , that you will receive what you need as you need it. What a testimony you have already been and will continue to be as God works to bring Glory to His name through you.
Love,
Jenn
http://www.jennalane2.blogspot.com

132 Danise Jurado January 16, 2011 at 3:14 am

Sweet Edie – I am so sad to hear of your loss, but together with you, I rejoice that God protected your family.
My love and prayers are with you-
I know our Lord will restore all to you and your family. Continue to rest in his promises.

133 Cynthia January 17, 2011 at 1:36 am

Thank you for sharing your love of Christ with all of us. Through this darkest time, your love for our Father hasn’t faultered. God will truly bless you and provide for you. I am a stranger, but will remember you in my prayers.

134 crystal January 27, 2011 at 4:12 am

I was actually reading Job the other day and thought of you. In my study notes included in my Bible, it talked about how you can say “Why Me” or “Use Me”. I immediately thought of you. You have a huge voice and while I’m sure this is devastating and will continue to be for a while, I can see you even now being used by God. You are the real deal. :) You are in my prayers daily.

135 edie wadsworth January 29, 2011 at 12:35 pm

you are a blessing. many thanks.
love to you,
edie

136 Ms. Tech March 3, 2011 at 3:00 pm

Dear Edie, My class and I have been following your blog and we are very sorry to hear of your loss.I cried as I read your post to my fifth graders. We are studying blogging and the writing process. The writers technique we are focusing on is personal narrative and small moments. The use of the inner voice through writing , brings emotion and impact to readers. I found your blog through your retro renovation, and have been reading ever since. God does not give us what we can’t handle. I always think ahead when I am feeling the weight of the world, I say in a week , in a month , next year at this time… healing, change, focus, perception , its all about change, embrace it.

137 Jessica B November 3, 2011 at 1:36 am

Hi Edie, I am a new follower & saw  the Nesters (I think it was the Nester?)post last week about your room redo. I wanted to comment but we lost power b/c of the snow and just got it back today. I am so sorry for the loss of your home but am so happy that you and your family are safe & time has passed since that tragic night. I have enjoyed looking at your rooms on your blog …just gorgeous! Look forward to following you :)

138 Jessica B November 3, 2011 at 1:40 am

Hi Edie, hoping this message goes through..having trouble with the disqus. I saw the nesters post (I think it was the nester?) last week about your room redo (the one with Darlene) & was so saddened by your loss of your home but VERY happy that you and your family were & are all safe! I pray that the time that has passed has helped you move forward in dealing with the fear  & loss. Your blog is awesome & that room redo is just fantastic!!!! Look forward to following you :)
Jessica@ http://www.nucheysmommy.blogspot.com

139 Jessica B November 3, 2011 at 1:40 am

O geez….looks like both comments went through! :)

140 edie wadsworth November 3, 2011 at 11:40 am

thank you so much jessica for your sweet encouragement.
bless you friend!
xo,
edie

141 Allison November 7, 2011 at 11:09 pm

Edie,

I just came across your blog via the 31 day challenge, and I am so glad I did.  I am so moved by what you and your family have been through, but even more moved by your unwavering faith.  Thank you for your sharing, and for you beautiful witness of God’s unchanging, unending, unfailing love.  When I read this post I was brought to tears, not only for your family and your loss, but because your emotional response to trauma reminded me so of the stages I went through after being diagnosed with cancer a few months ago.  But I too, have found that I know see the world differently, because of the love and grace that has been poured up on me in my time of need.  Thank you for these words:  ”And I pray that this gift of seeing the world differently will stay.   That I won’t forget this mercy raining down.  That I will know like never before that Love has come, incarnate, in the flesh for me.”   I pray for the same thing.  

Praying for you-in thanksgiving and that the past year has been continuously full of love and grace, light and warmth, amidst the pain and sorrow, darkness and cold.  

Peace to you,
Allison (be-not-afraid.org)

142 edie wadsworth November 9, 2011 at 11:55 am

bless you sweet allison. i pray for peace during your trials my friend. we are nearer the heart of God during suffering than during any other time. thank you for your sweet encouragement.
xo,
edie

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